Hi lazy baby pig dog abnormal boyfriend :D When you see this post, you must be really shock cause I don't think you think I'll use your blog someday, right? You know who I am right? HEHE :)
I know recently we're having a bad time like a roller coaster, suddenly we're good and the next minute, we're mad at each other. I know I've been bringing up that topic that you never wanted it to happen like almost everyday.. I'm sorry if what I've asked for hurt you badly inside and there's nothing I can do. But I just wanted to be honest to you, I don't wanna hide things from you because I know it doesn't feel good at all.
It's so pathetic that I can't hold on any longer.. I love you but I can't be with you..? You must be thinking this is some bullshits, because if I love you, there's nothing that can stop me from being you, right? But baby, actually there's a lot of things that stops me from being together with you, but I just never wanted to tell you because.. I never have the guts, because I love you that's why I'm trying all my best to protect you. I just want to keep you with me as long as I could, I'll do whatever I can just to spend more time with you, right now. I can't even waste a second of time. How I wish we're glued together, lived together so I can see you all day night and long, I can't afford to lose you and see you walk away from me.
Waking up in the morning next to you, have breakfast with you, cook together with you, watch TV with you, cuddle with you, do silly stuffs with you, seeing your asleep face is enough to make my life wonderful.. know why? because silly, it's YOU. :) Only you makes me happy.
Still remember what happened yesterday? I can't believe I'm the first :p But you know.. it's also the first time I've seen you looking so helpless, because of me, and that, breaks my heart too.. I cried because I don't know what to do, I feel so useless, because you're always mad at me. Or is there a distance between us already?
4 more days till the 5th month with you. Feelings don't fade, memories stays, my love for you will always be there, I promise you.
I'm sorry again, for everything..
I love you baby.
Yours truly,
ceejayhej's girl.